The Goddess I Want to Become

WHY do I stay "stuck"????I'm turning 40 in about 4 months, and I'm still stuck in Stucksville, USA. Stuck in bad food, old habits, non-oxygen living. I've DONE the other stuff - the Good stuff - and Loved how I felt doing it. "Somehow" ended up back here in the Crap Zone of Life, and I REALLY want to change, to *BE* different.

Yet, each night I think, OK - Tomorrow I am SOOOO doing my Taebo/eating better. Yet, the morning comes, and here I lay. In bed, surrounded by my cute lil dogs, watching tv, surfing... the morning goes... and it turns into another day where I didn't *DO* what I planned, what I Want, what I NEED to do!!! I want to be a Goddess! I want to be lean, fit, healthy! I WANT - I know I must DO.

... this is a little cathartic. spilling my guts to you here. I think perhaps I Can do it this next morning. I WILL do my 30 mintues of oxygenated living. I WILL have my Kashi/bananas/soy milk breakfast. I WILL make a good choice for lunch and dinner. I WILL drink liter upon liter of water. Life giving, Life affirming water. I sweated like a pig this summer.I do NOT want to be FAT next year, my 40th summer on earth. I want to wear cute tanks, little shorts, free and fabulous. I have at least 6 months til the Warm weather comes again. That can be at LEAST 60 pounds off my goddess-in-the-making body. Kick it up a notch during the hot summer months, eating lighter, moving even more - can lose easily another 30-40, and Presto - I'm about where I want to be, not even a whole year from now.

A Year - feels/looks like forever.Day by Day - we all know goes by LIKETHIS!Day 1 - Tomorrow - a Thursday, not a Monday - I will begin. I have ALREADY begun, by deciding right NOW to start making better choices.
I am excited. I am finally fucking Ready. I've Been ready... I just lacked the true desire and discipline. If I want to be a Goddess, I have to earn it.